ChEnTa..ChEnTa..ChEnTa

i biliv in da 'life's like a wheel' phrase
sumtimes ur up n sumtimes ur down
n usualy ppl wil relate dis to da luvlife rite?

i rmember my first crush..it was in standard 1 n hes sitink behind me in clas. but it was heart-breakin coz i was realy shy n hingusy n hes da class monitor. or in otha word, da most popular boy in clas..hehe.i was aimink high:p n i got my lil heart broken coz he liked da 'penolonk ketua class'..its ol boud da title otey..huhh..heh:p

den i rmember how eager i was to b a playgurl bck in skola mnengah. had my first luv ther n it was sweet..hes da 'giv u a choc bar evryday, write songs 4 u kinda guy'..xcept dat i encounterd da 'break-up syndrome'..heh. it was goink too well i felt it was borink. n to top it up..my galfwens are ol breakin up so i felt like its da 'it' tink to do..nuts wasnt it? i can only smile tinkin how wannabe i was den..hehe

but i was den celebratink da glory of beink DA heartbreaker:p

den i had my fair share of getink my heart broken..tho il neva admit it at da time:p ges its da case of it was bad enuff havink my heart split in 2..im not gona bruise my ego as wel..man-like tinkin my fwens say..heh

i rmember pretendink dat da breakup is nothink..but id cry in da toilet stall once a week..walowink in self-pity..wic is y i tink samsoon da korean drama character resembles me @ sum point:p

so iv got my heart broken in std 1
iv left a guy jez for fun of it
iv left a guy for another guy
iv got cheated on in a long-distnce rship
iv crushed on a guy in skool who luvs his gf dearly n got my heart broken
iv broke sum girl's heart coz da guy shes in luv wif luvs me
iv yelled at my ex to move on
iv begged at my bf to take me bck
iv felt dead in a relationship

wel u c da point is i felt iv gone thru evritink..but its not yet evritink, if u get wat i mean..its tru boud da life's a wheel sayink..n i biliv dat in evry kesusahan ther is light dat Allah wil giv to u in da end. n to evry hapiness ther wil be an endink as wel..pahit nak telan ayat yg ni:( coz currently im so very hepi

its jez colors we choose to paint our life wif
n if we pray hard enuff,
mebe we'l get vibrant colors all along ;)